This Is What Happen When You Asked For Something And You Didn't Get Just What You Always Wanted

days and days ago i was praying
if you could give me an answer to this what i'm thinking
it felt so long and i was hoping for the best
so stupid, for once i think it's the one that will make me feel happy

i asked you to give me an answer from one of two
my feeling was in between, happy or sad, but i trust you
once again i fell i think it's gonna be the happy one
but then, when you answered, i just can't believe

the choices i gave were the one i was sure about
i was prepared to be happy, no doubt
but then, the one i was sure about isn't good enough
you sent the one i wasn't hoping for

i thought i could take this, but then now this is happening
why the other part of me still can't believe this is happening
yeah, hey this is happening! this is so fuckin' happening
now i just have to face it and still, i have to be happy about life
well, how? i'm so fucked up,why this have to be so hard?
if there's a ladder to heaven, i'll climb it!
if there's a chance to live, i'll fuck it!

why did you sent her to answer to me?
i thought you would make me feel happy
why didn't you tell me from the very start?
now you broke my heart

why did you sent her to answer to me?
i thought you would make me feel happy
why didn't you tell me from the very start?
now you broke my heart
yet, why am i not just dead?